Monday, August 21, 2017

Today was a historic day.

eclipse, moon, night
Today was a historic day. 
For some it was because of the Eclipse. 
For some it was because their babies started school. 
For some it was because they said “yes” or “I do”. 
For some it was because they’d made it to 1 or 5 or 10 years cancer free. 
And for some it was because they got a positive cancer diagnosis.

It wasn’t too long ago, that my Mom sat me down after a lovely Christmas visit, the day before we were to fly back to our NC home at the time, to break it to me that she had cancer and was having a very serious surgery in the following days.  Fast forward to almost 5 years later and she’s thankfully doing great.  While there is still a shadow looming (like there will always be now), much like that Eclipse many of us witnessed today, she is healthier than ever and the strongest fighter I know! (read more here)

Others don’t have the same outcome though.  Cancer is mysterious.  Cancer is devastating.  Cancer is cancer.  Even in the day and age of wonderful, revolutionary science and modern medicine, they don’t know much about cancer.

Today was the day a dear friend of mine, whom I’ve known for 15 years, got the news that nobody ever wants to receive.  There are still so many unknowns because it is early in the diagnosis and cancer just has so many unknowns.  I can’t imagine the helpless and, even at times, hopeless feelings my friend and her family must be going through right now.  Life already is full of unknowns with jobs, children, family, neighbors, etc.…but to put your health into that just is hard.  I am truly heartbroken for her.  Cancer stinks.  We should lean into God for the strength to fight, for answers and comfort.  But it doesn’t always come that naturally.  Could you please lift up a prayer for her and her sweet family?  And could you also add them to your prayer list?

Let’s hug our loved ones tightly when we see them and let them know we love them.  Let’s lean into the Word of God.  Let’s lean on a friend.  Reach out for help or offer help.  Let’s pray like we’ve never prayed before.  Not just for my friend (which I’m sure she’s appreciate) but also for our families, our country, our world and our walk with God.  Let’s get closer to each other and to God.  

Today reminds me of how short life truly is, and how we never know when we’ll meet our Maker.   

Jesus was 33 when He died.  He was the age that I am now.  That’s all.  In today’s standards that’s a short life, but He completed everything He needed to in that time frame.  Although you could argue that since He was still fully God while He was fully human, he likely knew how long He was going to live and therefore could be highly efficient with His time which He would be anyway because He was perfect.  Since we aren’t at all God, not even a little, shouldn’t we be super efficient with our time since we have NO IDEA when it will be up?  We’ve only got one chance at this life, and none of us are making it out of here alive.  

While I hope and pray my friend's cancer is treatable and as curable as some seem to be, there are no guarantees in this life.  Well, there is one and it is that life will end for each of us.  Then there are two ways to go:  to be united with God forever or to be separated from him for eternity.  I know where she and I both stand, do you?

Monday, August 14, 2017

It's a start

We just got back from a much needed weekend away that was completely unplugged. (Literally because we had no service!) While we had a great time, it was so sad to come home to such tragic news of the events this weekend. While I am still processing how some can have so much hate in their hearts, I am not really surprised.  I hear so many people say things like it’s so much better than it was before civil rights or we’ve come so far….but have we really?

A few weeks ago we were coming home from the mountains and stopped at a visitor center to check out the view.  I was with my husband and son when I went to the counter to ask if they had any Jr. Ranger books.  My son had been sitting in the car for an hour before we got out to stretch and was kind of cranky (like any two-year-old might be at any given moment).  The ranger looks at him, interrupting the conversation she was having with me, to say:  “Are you being a good boy today?  Because if you aren’t we’re going to string you up in that tree.”  My jaw dropped.  I didn’t even have words.  I really wish I would have called out her racism and how inappropriate her comment was.  Not only was it inappropriate for a child (or anyone) but with the history in this country of lynching…and the fact that it still happens her comment was just ridiculous.  I didn’t have words, so I scraped my chin off the floor and booked it out of there. 

I certainly don’t have a fix all for our country or for racism but I keep coming back to a few things:

1.  Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. (Romans 12:9)

2.  Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. (1 John 4:20)

3.  Perfect love drives out fear. (1 John 4:18)

4.  Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. (Dr. Martin Luther King)

5.  The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. (Dr. Martin Luther King)

Let’s hold our loved ones a little closer tonight.  Let’s be kind and love well.  Let’s pray.  Let’s lift up more prayers than ever before. <3 font="">

Wednesday, August 2, 2017


So, it had been getting harder and harder to see for the last few months.  It came on gradually and sometimes my vision would seem perfectly fine.  Then other times it’s just like I was looking through some frosted glass.  It seemed to come and go  and was thankfully only affecting my right eye.  I attributed it to allergies for a bit until the beginning of July when I finally decided to make an appointment to see an eye Dr.  I had a couple other things going on in my eyes, so I wanted to see an Ophthalmologist… 

I had my appointment last week, and long story short I’m fine.  I’ve had some sort of eye glass Rx for about 10-15 years…but it’s been so little of a difference from my regular vision I was only told to wear them when I wanted or at night when driving but I’m not restricted on my driver’s license or anything.  So basically…that means I don’t wear them.  Unless maybe I’m doing a lot of computer work and get eye strain…but really, let’s be honest.  Have you ever seen me in glasses?  Probably not!  Ha!  Ironic because I begged my mom for YEARS for glasses and just like she said…when I got them, it turns out I didn’t really want them! 

It had been over three years since I’d been to the eye Dr. and sure enough…all I needed was a stronger Rx for glasses and….get this….to actually wear them.  LOL  Slightly embarrassing reality that my eyesight has just gotten worse….but I’m so thankful my optic nerves and everything else is pretty much perfect! 

Today my glasses got in and I’m a little on the fence about 1.  The way they look/feel on my face and 2. How I like this Rx.  It’s still not a very big Rx but it’s big enough that it’s taking my eyes and brain some time to get used to.  The coolest thing is possibly that I can see SO much better.  I was driving to meet my niece for lunch and I could see not just the trees lining the street (like I always could) but all the leaves on the trees, as well as street signs before I’m right on top of them, etc… 

Isn’t that just how life is?  Things change gradually and we don’t even notice it until it hits some sort of breaking point?  I didn’t even realize that I wasn’t seeing the full picture.  I had gotten comfortable.  So, I  just need glasses to be able to see clearly.  I’m sure you could tell exactly what I needed from the opening sentence, and that’s also how life is sometimes.  We can see solutions to other people’s problems easily but not our own.  Or, we can see the speck in our friends’ eye and not the plank in our own. (Matthew 7:3)

Hint:  that’s me a lot…although also something I’ve been working on a lot this summer!  The removal of my own figurative plank in my eye…Perhaps then I wouldn’t need glasses at all! 

  I'm not fishing for compliments really, but if you have any feedback or tips I would love them!  Since I'm basically a glasses newbie!