I had been on it for ten years, and even though there were things I liked about it....there were more things that I didn't.
Not that I need to get into on here, because let's face it, Facebook like every other social media outlet, is polarizing. You either love it, or hate it.
For me, I feel like it was/could be a huge time sink. So I'm happy to have that time back (during naps, first thing in the morning, etc...). Although, I miss the keeping up with extended family and friends that I've had since high school, college, NC, etc...not that we were exactly keeping in touch the way real friends do....but more like what social media has conditioned us to do....so I now am trying to actually connect with people in person, via email, via blogs and occasionally via instagram.
But I am truly sad about the fact that I will now lose (or rather, have lost) a lot of our adoption journey followers. I will continue to update this blog (hopefully a little more regularly now that we're settled and little man has settled into one stellar nap a day.) and I hope and pray you keep reading and coming along with us on this journey called life. I enjoy writing my thoughts and updates here, and in a lot of ways I find it easier to write them than to talk about them. (more on that in a bit)
According to the all knowing google:
Quitter - a person who gives up easily or does not have the courage or determination to finish a task.
Now, I have quit a few things in my life, but if you look at that definition that's not really describing what I did when I left facebook or 'quit' other things in my life. I actually had the courage to walk away. I'm not saying everyone should. It depends on the situation. Being a quitter isn't always being a quitter. Sometimes having the courage to walk away, or chose a different path isn't quitting. It's more like taking the next steps in faith that despite not knowing what comes next. To quote one of my all time favorite poets and poems....
My mom has always been a fan of Robert Frost, so I'm not sure whether I first heard this one from her or if it was when I went to a small charter school (read: 80 students total enrollment for grades 8-12) and they used this as their kind of "theme". Either way, I love this line. I like to think that I have made the choice to take the road less traveled several times in my life, but the truth is....yes and no.
I still find myself in my old ways of wanting to measure up...to the worlds standards, my friends standards and even my family's standards. Am I tall enough? Smart enough? Pretty enough? Thin enough? Nice enough? Fashionable enough? Tough enough? Woman enough? Mom enough? The list goes on. And to be honest friends, it's exhausting to try to live up to all of that.
So today, in front of you readers as my witnesses, I quit.
You can quit too, you know?
We are all precious in God's eyes. We are enough. You know why? Because HE is more than enough. He is everything we need. He is love. He is strength, dignity, righteous and the list goes on. Most of all though, He is full of grace. Grace for you. Grace for me. Grace for those trying their best to make their ends meet. God is enough. We can rest in that.
So I am going to quit trying to make people happy. I will be as nice as possible still, but I am not going out of my way to just make someone happy.
I quit talking myself down because I don't look supermodel thin with super fashionable taste. I am a 30 something mom who likes to run around in jeans, t-shirts and messy buns. :)
I quit trying to be taller. The Lord made me 5' 3.5" and that's as tall as I am ever going to be.
I quit trying to act like I have it all together when I don't. Who has it all together all the time anyway? (If you do, please give me tips!!!)
I quit looking down on myself or other mommies in the thick of it. We are all here together. As they say, the days are long but the years are short. Let's band together and lift each other up instead of tearing each other down! Let's encourage! Let's hang out! Let's say hi the next time we see each other at the park!
I quit trying to make others like me. I am who I am. I can't be someone I'm not. I've tried and I'm exhausted. If you need me, I'll be over here finishing my chicken noodle soup that I just made from scratch in the middle of summer, not because I am that crunchy or wonderful or whole food eating...but because it sounded good and I needed some comfort food to continue to get over this cold turned bronchitis I've had for the last couple weeks. Wanna bowl?